Coping without my children

Living a hopeless life thinking that one day something will change is not necessarily the ideal situation. I am sure like me hundreds of men around the US feel the frustration, lack of possibilities, substandard living and the sadness of living without your little loved ones. The fact is the system does not care, the lawyers much less (unless you find an ethical professional 1 in a million) and the mothers enjoy the ride. My tone is simply the result of 20 years of my life being abused by two exwives that only cared about themselves and the cash I could provide. My best days are gone and I am still being attacked by a psychopath that somehow manages to get away thanks to her intelligent lies. The worse part is my children have asked me to fight for them but I just have exhausted possibilities. I had to go to places where nobody goes to get solvency to survive however the time I was gone my children have had a brainwash system and psycholical pressure that makes them feel guilty if they try to ask for their father. I don't know what to do.......Somebody out there please help!!!!