I would like to get my job back

This is my very sad life story, which is about second chances in life as the consequences, non-privileged people pay for their mistakes. 

I was a victim of my wrongdoing as well, when working for the US Federal Government. I proudly served our country with honor and dedication.  When, I came to the United States 35 years ago, I was considered a foreigner, speaking with the accent.  Nonetheless, I came here legally, standing in line for my number to be called, which took several years.  I was ridiculed and discriminated against by some of my co-workers including my Superiors, throughout my entire Federal career.  Although, at times it was very tough, yet I was very determined to giving back to this beautiful country, which welcomed me and I loved and still do so very much.  My determination was very strong to succeed, because I believed in the cause and above all, I loved my job!!!! To obtain the Top Secret Clearance, was a very arduous and lengthy process by investigating my integrity, honesty, loyalty as well as the dedication to the United States and good moral character.  The positive results prevailed and finally I was accepted and becoming a part of the US Federal Government family which was a very humbling and honorable reward for someone as me, coming from another country.  So, later on to lose all of that, which I could dare to call the most thus far a tragic experience in my life.  This event was not equally treated in the category of losing people who I loved very much and were close to my heart, ex; my brother, who 3 years ago was brutally murdered and other people who I loved and passed away, much too early.  The abovementioned event happened due to entanglement with the wrong, dishonest, con-man, who lied to me in order to obtain his Green Card, through marriage to me.  He did not have any regard to what would have happened to me after that.  This experience, was and still is a very painful wound in my heart, which is not healing even with the passage of time.  To make a long story short, when I got involved with that man, who lied to me and never cared to even disclose to me, he was in the country illegally at the time when we met, by overstaying his F1 Student Visa.  When he came to visit me at the place, State, where I was working for a US Federal Government Agency and while driving my car, he was stopped by the US Border Patrol.  During this stop, he admitted to them that he was not a US citizen.  Unfortunately, I was not aware about this fact, since he deliberately chose to keep a secret from me.  However, my agency did not believe me and fired me.  Because I loved him and thought he reciprocated my feelings as well, we got married.  Subsequently, I filed a spousal petition for him, which did not improve things at all.  Ever since, my life has never been the same.  Practically, I’ve been homeless, can't get any other job, I mean any, since I would not get a positive reference, from my employer.  My life has been ruined and I’m no longer with my husband.  Now I know that he used me and married me only for the Green Card.  My agency was right and I was blind.  I really loved the man, trusted him and never would have expected such a betrayal, abandonment, which almost happened immediately, after we got married.  I fought for him to obtain his Green Card, which wasn’t easy.  Subsequently, he joined the US Navy and two years later became an US citizen. I felt as I was blindsided and betrayed twice.  First, by my agency that they did not believe me, second, by my boyfriend, who later became my husband and was dishonest with me.  I now know this was a horrible mistake I made.  I've been paying a very harsh price for seven years, which it has been irreparable in my mind and heart.  I am ashamed of myself and cannot believe that my judgement call, common sense was so totally clouded.  I do not have any other explanation than the fact that I simply loved the man and trusted him.  I could have never even imagined, despite receiving a very extensive US Federal training with the background in criminal psychology, dealing with criminals and criminal acts throughout my lengthy US Federal Government career, it did not help me to exercise it in my own personal life.  Also, I could have ever imagined that one day I would become a victim of my own profession.  The person I deeply fell in love with and thought of as a nice, honest and caring human being, at least as I perceived him, would have showed his true colors very soon thereafter.  Nonetheless, it was too late for me to reverse everything what had happened and I have not been able to recover from it.  It’s been very difficult to recover from the realization that the person who I deeply loved and trusted, without any hesitation targeted me and used me to his own benefit.  He totally ruined my professional, as well as personal life, I do take a partial blame for it, because I loved and trusted him.  I’ve been paying some very harsh consequences, until now, seven years later.  Initially I just simply thought that I would die, because of the heartache and betrayal.  I guess God has another plan for me, although I still do not know what, because seven years later I’ve been still alive.   Nonetheless, I’m definitely not the same person I once was!!!   My physical and mental health have really been compromised, because of the shock.  I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD, can’t sleep and function normally!!!  I’ve isolated myself to the outside world, because of my pain, shame and difficulties to deal with my hardships.  I’m lonely and very alone with my pain. Because I’m lacking financial resources I can’t find anyone in a legal system, who would be willing to help me fighting for getting my job back.  I’m scared of meeting new people, because I do not want to tell them the truth, to be immediately judged, but also I do not want to lie to them either.  I don’t think anyone would even try to understand, it’s just a human nature, unless you walk in someone shoes, one simply could neither understand nor feel one’s pain, sorrow, this experience has caused.  My credit, which once was in well above 800 has totally been ruined.  I lost my condo, I can’t afford my own place, not even the leased place, under my name, I’ve been driving my brother’s car and most of all I can’t financially support my elderly mother, who was my dependent my entire life.  I appealed my case for six years by myself, to no avail.  I wrote to everyone I could including and starting with; President Obama, I wrote about several letters without any response, Janet Napolitano, Mr. Mayorkas, Jeh Johnson, Senator, Bernie Sanders, local Congressmen’s' all over the country to mention, just a few, Darrel Issa, Dick Durbin, Bobby Rush.  I’ve done a very hard, exhaustive legal work by myself, but it would not be enough, since, I am not an attorney and could not represent myself before the US Federal Courts.  Therefore, I should find one, but how can I do it, without any financial resources?  I can’t find any attorney, who would be willing to represent me pro bono and can’t afford to hire an attorney who would help me with the case.  I seem not to have a break for such a long time, that I lost hope I ever will.  I’m really tired and sometimes wished that I just got to sleep forever, but my elderly mother needs me, so I’m hanging out there, however, I’m truly exhausted.   I’m basically asking for a second chance in life, by getting my job back and becoming an independent person, I once was!!!! I’ve been a transient person, yet I do not qualify for any state or government benefits, because officially, I’m still married to this man.  I must have applied for more than few thousand jobs and no one has been interested to hire me.  I'm 60 years old and only God knows what’s in the store for me????  I do have a pending petition at;  

www.Thepetitionsite.com with the title:  

I WOULD LIKE TO GET MY JOB BACK

However so far, I only have 9 signatures and I need at least 1000, to even be considered for a review and possible reconsideration.  Are there any people who would be willing to give me a second chance in life in any possible way?

Thank you everyone for taking their time and reading my life story and desperate plea and God Bless You!!!!