Get,Oklahoma more mental health help,Now!

Hello, my name is Julie Hellwig I am a US citizen,as well as a resident of Oklahoma city Born in California raised in Oklahoma.I suffer from a chemical imbalance and have my whole life,it wasn't until I was between the ages 21-23 yr old when I was diagnosed, with PTSD, high anxiaty, ADHD, and depression. I had always know I was different not sure why or how.My mother wasn't able to identify my mental illness, that was because she was secretly suffering her self,as well as her siblings and parents who had for been yrs. I am a now 37 yrs of age, a mother of 6 children and 2 grandkids. Knowing about my illnesse did not prepare or teach me what to watch for in my children.I have been through and seen so many different behavior's in all my kids. My oldest almost 20 yrs old now. Was diagnosed in kindergarten 2000- 2001 with ADHD. Riddolen! that was prescribed medication by primary care physician. She Never seen a counselor or a psychiatrist. Misdiagnosed,and wrong medication only led her illness to escalate, causing her to drop out, act out of her normal behavior, became sexually active run away at 14 yrs old, got pregnant didnt know how to care for her self properly. she was 16yrs old and cremated her first born baby. At one times or another I would call her by her name she would tell me her name was something else, & to stop calling her that other name. She tell's me in a serious but angry irritating voice " I wish she would stop calling me that) i know she surfers. But she swears nothing's wrong, she is pregnant with her 4th baby, no job, no education. She is content with her life with & how things are in her life she see's no problem's. My 11 yr old daughter surfer's from Tourette syndrome, high anxiaty, PTSD, ADHD,hears a voice call her name & a fidgeting disorder, anger disorder, she was held back 2 times.2nd-3rd. My 10yr old daughter honor roll, 1 of the top 5 readers 2 yrs in a row, Lack's attention from parent's due to siblings illnesses, developed depression and eating disorder. My 9yr old son suffers from delexia, ADHD,anxiaty,easily stressed, easily angers. held back 2 times in 1st. fidgeting disorder. (Not Treated. Yes he has diagnosis. My 8yr old son diagnosed with autism 2-3yrs ago, ADHD, & hallucinations. Is only being treated for ADHD, he suffers daily,doesn't understand a lot of things like why we have to change clothing every day or take a bath. Then there is my 7yr old my youngest ADHD yes diagnosed, yes medicated. The sweetest little man,he could be across the room and down the hall and hear me cry,or get upset come in so serious rubbing my face giving me hugs and kisses till I felt better with a smile and off he would go to play,watching him grow was so wild he was always so advanced than others in his age group, they would play with blocks he would try to rebuilding a go cart motor,know his tools by name and so on. Till school age,then starts threaten's to harm siblings ,anger toward anything, crying, fit's,no one will baby sit him, I'm told he is the devil,he has mental problems,what did you do to that kid, he is going to spend his whole life in prison. This summer & now this school year the asst. principal, principal & other staff members have pulled together & have stayed strong. They didnt and havent given up on him. They Have even helped me force him to stay in school as long as we could on are own. After being pinched, slapped, punched bit till he drawled a little blood. I were left with welts and Knott's from all the bitting, the last draw was him running out of the school twice. So for his safety as well as my self Dad, the staff and kids, we took him home to have him admitted as we had been told would be best for him. A part of me wanted to admit him. I couldn't see leaving him there to get him help, wheni know that when in an out break they medicate and put them in a room with a mat down till the next day. I know my son the next day it would have been the same thing again. A shot of the loopy booty juice till the next morning. Now that will not help him or any other person suffering with these illnesses. But, who do we turn too? who do we call? where do you go? who can you trust? where do you get your medication? how will I pay for it ? Who will care, really care? I don't want to just go to the Dr.,then a councilor, then a psychiatrist for what 45-60 min. To do what answer 100 question's when I'm already nervous,scared,worried and I am not understanding the questions you are asking. Or to get bored with all that talk and questions you asked." I just caught you asking me the same questions, but in a different manner.(I'm thinking to my self, your the one with problems here and you say i need help! i have a chemical balance of sort, I'm not stupid) Now an hour later i have the common ADHD diagnosis,along with anxiaty, ptsd, bypola. But you have told me not to worry we can get all of that under control with just a few pills a day a few weekly check up's, oh ya and you will set me up with a councilor onece a week until there is an improvement. Now im taking six prescription's and i can know sit still and fall asleep several times a day because four of my scripts make me drowsy, it makes me sleep walk talk and eat, it allows my body to function as if I was awake,my moods are worse than before I'm angry due to one medication, and emotional due to another. Now I don't ever want to go back. Why so they can keep using me as a guinea pig. You know I am proud of the Dr.s I have met who care about me and my kids.who see's us for us,they dont treat us like we don't understand or that we are different then them. I have an illness! that does not make me crazy,stupid,or say that I don't know what I'm talking about. So with feeling all of that above and way more. I stopped psychiatry, counseling and all that medication they were not listening to me,and keep giving me medication that was slowly killing me. But even though I quit all that. It didn't mean I was denying my illness, ir treatment. no I went beyond and above trained my self,did lots of research asked a lot of questions lost a lot if sleep,cried a lot. I was my own councilor, my own support teami was my back up plan, i have figured this out what we need and how we will get it do it and jnow it will work. I am here to prove it can hapoen with or with out medication. But then I looked around everywhere I went, I seen mental illness every where,stealing because of no job,or money now off to jail(mentally I'll) getting angry not understanding it attacking now off to jail.(mentally ill) parents abandoning children, neglecting abusing,molesting, rapping, stealing robberies dishonesty, homeless,hungry,drugs. Who is there to aid to there rescue no one who care's or understands. yes one person,the one on the phone with 911 send officer this person who just attacked that woman over there. The wiman tekks cio i dint jnow what happend he grabbed me for no reason, he just grabbed me making noises! "I think he was trying to rape me! The mentally ill man just needed a hug the sat. 12 o'clock sirens scared the 45yr old mentally challenged man who ran to so called victim, frightened for comfort and couldn't find his mommy who is now passed away 5yrs and he doesn't understand that. now the cop's are there,the man is going to jail now for attempted rap.I just don't understand the system that the "none" mentally challenged citizens have created for the discipline actions of the mentally ill. Now my question is in a court room the judge says everyone's innocent until proven guilty! Right? OK, then tell me why is the D.A's office allowed to get away with breaking the law. A person who suffers from any type of mental disturbance of the brain witch causes them to act in a way in witch is not there usuals self,or in a manner where behavior is an issue for what ever sort can not be held accountable for there actions or words. I say that because it has been researched and studied by highly qualified Dr. who says it is a disease that controls the whole nerves system and other parts of the brain,and that a person does not control what they do, yes, they know right from wrong. but the disease doesn't allow the person to make the choice he/she knows is the right one. So there for that person can not be proven guilty because you don't know who or what was in control at the time. Prison is not the place for a mental illness. So I've decided to get the word out to try bringing in some experts from other states who is specialized in such areas to help me pull this together for a better tomorrow. Not just for the mentally ill,but for you and the community's who have suffered long enough. I suffer when seeing my son have his fit's, or doesn't want to eat for 2-3 days due to medication, threatens to kill siblings.I have seen him get so mad his nose gushes blood. I want more state support and funded groups for them to go to get away and entertain there brain,keeping an activitie of there like around when an out Burst comes on.more classes to help them cope with certain situations, making cartoon movies that explains the brain and a person reactions and actions as they are seeing what the brain is doing at the time the diesis take over,and what happens when the right medication is taken or what happens to the brain and the actions of person when not medicated. So that everyone knows what to look for in loved one's, neighbors,friends,strangers and even in them self's. I feel that if people where more aware of the signs they would be more prompt to reaching out.we need more facility, more programs, support,love,care I will with all of your support be able to make all of this happen. Make your phone calls, do your research. We need help here in Oklahoma and I will not stop! until I reach out and get all the help I am seeking. My kids are American of the unistares citizesof Oklahoma and there are law's they have the right to get there education and learn like other kids.that mean even if they have to call in a team of support specialist, they have the right to know what is going in with them and there body,and the right to be show the tools they need to make it in life with the illness, and how to control it. This is it for now,From Oklahoma city where we stand up!!! and we stand together, where children are never left behind, but mental health illness has taken over most of the state and very few care. Now, I demand this action to be taken as soon as possible. To much time has gone by. Sincerely a USA citizen of okc. A victim of metal health illness, as well as the spokes person for my children's, there father's and my mental health illness. As well as the woman who is going to get on everyone nurves, until I get this accomplished for my family and probably yours. Julie A. Hellwig(: