ASSISTED SUICIDE

I HAVE LOST 3 CHILDREN IN MY LIFE & I HAD TO WATCH MY OLDEST DAUGHTER DIE FROM BREAST CANCER. IT WAS HEART BREAKING & ALFULL TO WATCH. THERE WAS NO HOPE FOR HER & WAS HOME UNDER HOSPICE CARE, THEN IN JAN 2015 I HAD TO CHOOSE TO TAKE MY HUSBAND OFF LIFE SUPPORT & I DID. NOT KNOWING HOW LONG HE WOULD LIVE AFTERWARDS WAS ANYONES GUESS. THE MEDICAL STAFF MOVED HIM UP TO ROOM UNDER THE DEATH & HOSPICE CARE. HE WASN'T RESPONSIVE AT ALL. HE UST LAID THERE & WE HAD TO WATCH HIM A THAT WAS REALLY HEART BREAKING. HIS FACE CHANGED SO MUCH THAT HE DIDN'T EVEN LOOK LIKE HISSELF AS THOUGH HE WAS ALIVE BUT DEAD. HE HAD A DEATH RATTLE THAT WAS SO BAD & STILL & ALWAYS SEEING HIS FACE & HEARING THAT DEATH RATTLE WILL HAUNT ME. HE WOULD NOT OF WANTED TO LIVE THAT LONG AFTER BEING TAKEN OFF OF LIFE SUPPORT. I SAT THERE BY HIS SIDE FOR 51 HOURS WATCHING HIM HOLDING HIM KISSING HIM TALKING TO HIM NEVER LEAVING HIS SIDE EXCEPT BATHROOM & SHOWER WHICH WAS IN THE ROOM. WOULDN'T SLEEP FOR I WANTED TO SEE HIM & LOVE HIM TILL THE END. I SAT THERE WONDERING DOES HE HEAR US IS HE FEELING ANYTHING DID I TAKE HIM OFF LIFE SUPPORT TOO SOON SO ALL THIS WILL HAUNT ME THE REST OF MY LIFE. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO SIT & WATCH A FAMILY MEMBER DIE LIKE THAT. IF THERE IS NO HOPE & THEY TELL YOU SO THE FAMILY SHOULD HAVE THE CHOICH TO LET A DOCTOR HELP THE PERSON GO AHEAD & DIE WITH RESPECT & FOR THE FAMILY. I THINK BY LETTING A PERSON LAY THERE FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME DYING IS INHUMANE & HE HURTS THE FAMILY. WATCHING YOUR LOVED ONE DIE IS SOMETHING I NEVER WANT TO SEE IT IS REALLY HEART BREAKING & STICKS IN YOUR MIND. NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T SEE MY HUSBAND IN THAT STATE. HE NEVER WANTED TO LIVE IF HE HAD TO BE ON LIFE SUPPORT SO I CARRIED OUT HIS WISHES BUT HE WOULDN'T OF WANTED HIS FAMILY TO WATCH HIM DIE THAT LONG. MOST COULDN'T WATCH HIM BUT I COULDN'T LEAVE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE OF 44 YEARS HE WAS MY HEART & SOULD. PLEASE SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE THIS ISN'T RIGHT. GIVE THE FAMILY THE RIGHT FOR THE ASSITED DYING & HAVE THE PATIENTS SIGN A FORM ON DOING SO WHILE IN THE HOSPITAL & PUT IT IN THERE RECORDS. I CRY EVERY NIGHT THINKING ABOUT HIS FACE HIS BREATHING WONERING ALL KINDS OF THINGS SO AGAIN NO FAMILY IF THEY CHOOSE SHOULD NOT GO THROUGH THAT. LET THE PEOPLE VOTE ON . PLEASE GET IT ON A BILL TO BE VOTED ON & I BET YOU WILL FIND PEOPLE ARE FOR THAT TO HELP THEIR LOVED ONES PASS EASIER. THANK YOU       I  FORGOT TO SAY THAT IN JUNE I LOST MY OLDEST SISTER & HAD TO WATCH HER DIE.  SHE HAD A HEART ATTACT PLUS HER RT LEG WAS DEAD. WELL FOR A WEEK THE DOCTORS DIDNT WANT TO MAKE A DICISION BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T THINK SHE WOULD MAKE IT THROUGH A HEART REPAIR OR HER LEG.  FINALLY ON SAT I ASK MY NEICE WHAT DID THE DOC SAY SHE SAID NOTHING 1 HAD NOT BEEN IN YET.  I GOT MAD CALLED FOR A NURSE & TOLD HER TO GET A DOC IN HERE NOW OR I WAS HAVING HER MOVED OUT. THE DOC WAS IN THE WITHIN 15 MIN & HE TOLD US THE LEG HAD TO COME OFF SO WHEN DID WE WANT HIM TO DO SUN OR MON. WE SAID SUN.  ALL THIS TIME SHE IS IN SO MUCH PAIN CALLING OUT FOR ME TELLING ME SIS IT HURTS SO BAD.  WELL WHEN SHE CAME OUT OF SURGERY FIRST THING SHE REACHED FOR ME & SAID SIS PLEASE GIVE ME MY LEG BACK & I HUGGED HER TOLD HER I WOULD IF I COULD. HEART BREAKING.    SHE  SEEMED TO DO FINE BUT THEY SENT HER BACK TO THE NURSING HOME & SHE WAS FINE WHEN WE SAW HER TWICE THAT WEEK BUT WE DIDN'T REALIZE THE AIDS HAD NOT BEEN GETTING HER UP & SHE HAD BEEN LAYING & SITTING IN HER OWN FECUS & URINE FOR SO LONG SHE GOT A BED SORE.  BACK TO THE HOSPITAL. THIS WAS ON A SAT SO WHEN I GOT TO ER SHE WAS REACHING FOR ME AGAIN (I AM THE BABY OF THE FAMILY & SHE NEVER HAS GOTTEN ALONG WITH HER DAUGHTER )TELLING ME HOW BAD IT HURT.  I WAS SITTING THERE HOLDING HER HAND & THEY TURNED HER OVER TO CARE FOR THAT BED SORE & I LOST IT. I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE SEEN SOMETHING LIKE THAT. NO WONDER SHE WAS HURTING. I CRIED & CRIED.  THEY GOT UP TO A ROOM BECAUSE OF THE BED SORE SHE HAD 3 DIFFRENT INFECTIONS THEY WERE TRYING TO TREAT.  MON THE DOC SAID THE MEDS WERE NOT KILLING THE INFECTIONS & IT WAS IN HER BLOOD STREAM NOW. HE SAID THEY COULDN'T DO ANYMORE BETWEEN THAT & HER HEART SO TUES THEY WOULD MOVE HER TO ANOTHER NURSING HOME UNDER HOSPICE CARE.  COME TUES WHEN THE DOC SAW HER HE SAID HE WASN'T GOING TO MOVE HER BECAUSE SHE HAD STARTED THE DYING PROCESS SO SHE STAYED THERE.  SHE WAS STILL TALK A LITTLE & WOULD REACH FOR ME & I WOULD TELL HER IM HERE. THEN I WENT FROM BEING SIS TO MY MOTHER. SHE WOULD REACH FOR ME CALL ME MAMA SO I WOULD TALK TO HER LIKE MOTHER. SHE SAID MAMA CAN I COME NOW & I TOLD HER NO NOT YET WE HAD TO WAIT ON GOD TO TELL US U CAN COME SHE WOULD SAY OH.  AGAIN SHE WOULD WAKE UP UP SAY MAMA CAN I COME NOW SO I TOLD HER SOON THAT THE ANGELS WERE GETTING THE STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN READY FOR HER. SHE SAID OH OK.  NEXT WHEN SHE WOKE UP SHE SAID MAMA CAN YOU SEE THEM & I TOLD HER YES THEY WERE WAITING ON HER BUT SHE SAID CAN I COME NOW I TOLD HER SOON . I SAID REMEMBER WHEN GOD CALLS YOU & YOU WALK UP THE STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN ALL THE ANGELS WILL BE LINED UP ON EACH SIDE OF  THE THE STAIRWAY WITH BEAUTIFULL COLORED WINGS BUT ONCE SHE REACHED THE GATE ALL OUR LOVED ONES WILL BE THERE GOD WILL GREAT HER & HIS HEAD ANGELS WOULD BE BY HISSIDE & TO REMEMBER THEIR WINGS ARE ALL WHITE. THEN SHE WOULD BE HOME. SHE SAID OH OK MAMA. THOSE WERE THE LAST WORDS SHE SPOKE. SHE WOKE UP 1 OTHER TIME REACHING UP WITH HER ARMS LIKE SHE WAS REACHING FOR HEAVEN OR SOMEONE & YOU COULD TELL SHE PROBABLY COULDN'T SEE BECAUSE HER EYES WERE VERY GLASSY & SHE LOOKED DAZED. HER FACE TO STARTED TO CHANGE. THEY WERE GIVING HER PAIN MEDS & ADAVANT EVERY HOUR TO HELP THE PROCESS I GUESS. MY SISTER DIED JUNE 18TH THUR NITE AT 11:55 PM SO FROM TUES TILL THEN WE HAD TO SIT BY HER SIDE & WATCH HER DIE. IT WAS HEART BREAKING & ME HAVING TO BE MY MOTHER FOR HER TO EASE HER WHICH I DIDN'T MIND BY ME TALKING LIKE MOTHER IT SEEMED TO CALM HER. I DO NOT BELIEVE IN SUICIDE BUT ASSISTED SUICIDE I DO AFTER WATCHING 3 OF MY LOVED ONES PASS. IT HAUNTS YOU. IT ALL MENTALLY HAS WORE ME OUT & LIKE I SAID NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DO NOT PICTURE THEM.  ANYONE WHO HAS A LOVED 1 IN A NURSING HOME PLEASE CHECK THEM OFTEN & MAKE SURE THE STAFF IS DOING THEIR JOB. THERE WAS NO SENSE IN MY SISTER HAVING TO BE IN THAT SHAPE.  WHEN YOU GO SEE A LOVED 1 CHECK THEIR BEDDING & SPEAK UP TO THE STAFF. I DID LET THEM HAVE IT WHEN WE WENT TO PACK MY SISTERS STUFF UP & I TOLD THEM 1 DAY I HOPE THEY ARE TREATED LIKE THAT.  IF I DOCTOR TELLS YOU THERE IS NO HOPE OR A LOVED HAS TO BE ON LIFE  SUPPORT i WOULD RATHER MY LOVE ONE HAVE HELP. I KNOW GOD TELLS US WHEN IT IS TIME TO PASS BUT ON THIS I BELIEVE HE WOULD UNDERSTAND. BLESSINGS TO EVERYONE.