Fight agianst leep procedure what they didn't tell you about

My doctor told me my pap smear came back abnormal. So we do a second to make sure and agian it's not right. So he takes pieces of my cervix pinched off to be sent out. Comes back I have abnormal cells. He tells me I need a leep procedure and that everything will be fine. I ask how they do it and get told. And ask if there's anything else I should know. And get told nothing until after everything is already done it's damage and the healing process started did I realized I made a mistake listening to my doctor. I got four infections in 4 months. My bleeding never stopped that whole time. And I could no longer feel my husband durring sexual activity. That whole time I thought I was loose from the procedure. That I was depressed I exercised kegels. I bought cream vag a tight nothing worked to make me feel anything. And I realised it's not that I'm loose but that I am numb on the inside. I can feel my outside fine. I was not given all the information that I was needed to either further with the procedure or to not do it because it would ruin my life at a young age. I was 26 when it happened I'm 28 and to embarrassed to still tell my husband that I can't feel him. That would possibly ruin us. Or worse hurt him but I'm hurting the most.