MOMS PLEA FOR HELP

Hi, my name is Tammy. I am a 10 year domestic violence survivor.

One night, I just laid in bed crying myself to sleep as I had done many times over, but there was something more to it. In the morning, I woke up with a feeling inside. A feeling that I was strong, that I had to leave... no matter what.

You have to realize that being abused is not something that someone can just walk away from and it certainly isn't something that just starts over night. In the beginning, my husband was a sweet heart. He treated me so good. After we got married and he had that paper in his hands showing him that he had ownership is when things started to go wrong. I then got pregnant for our son. Thinking that he was great with my 2 little girls... I thought things would be ok.
 Little names and comments were being made, things that made me think .. but didn't force me to want to leave. After a bit longer, horrible names and things being said about me being no good were being said.. to which I then started to believe him. Every word, every action had me double thinking my own self. By the time the hitting started, I was a no one in my mind, in my self awareness. I do honestly believe that the main reason that I stayed was because I was abused growing up as a child.. and that is the only life that I knew... abuse.. It was normal for me.

The state of NY stepped in and told me that "I allowed my beatings, therefore, a neglect charge was being place onto me." Mind you, I not only never ever hit my children but owned my own daycare business for 8 years with a NYS License.

The morning that I left, I put my children in the car and grabbed a small bag of clothes for all of us. I then proceeded to the family court and got an order of protection on my husband. I then took my children and I and went to what we called our "hotel room". It was a room set up at the domestic violence shelter that had beds and one dresser in it.

After leaving a house that I owned and everything that I owned... school was starting and I wanted my children back into our home. I then went back to family court and got an order removing my husband from my home.

While living back in our home, I started to realize that we were not safe. I was getting phone calls back to back from the abuser. I was noticing that he was breaking into my home and following me all the time around town.
Every time I called the police about this situation, they would tell me .. "everything that he is doing are accidents. he doesn't mean it." This was the answer every time I called!

After about 4 months of it, I finally decided to take my children and run for our safety and sound of mind.

After about a months time of finally being free, finally being happy and seeing smiles on my children's faces, NYS stepped in and said that I violated my neglect charge by moving out of the area in which it was placed in. They removed my children. Placing my son back with his father, the abuser. Placing my oldest daughter with her father and my middle daughter with her father.. in which she never met before. (she was almost 12 years old). Her father has 16 years of abuse under his own belt and has tried to kill his own 2 sons by running them and their mother off the road. But cps will not check into his background due to "him living in another county".

I have many many laws that were broken. NYS laws that were broken... Amendment rights that have been broken.

I have found that I have a multi million dollar lawsuit against NYS. I have taken these rules and showed them to one of the cps workers who originally took my kids away from me and with in a week, she quit her job. Fear? or guilt? ...

I have also found out that when my children turn 18, they too can sue for all the same laws and amendment rights being broken.

I have done everything through family court that they have expected of me.. including doing a domestic violence course of 6 weeks and had a mental evalutation to show that I was sane to take care of my children.. which I found out due to the Hippa law was illegal as well.

But because of the fact that the aunt, who now has my son do to him running away several times... gets a load of money for caring for my son. She has actually cut her hours of work in half.... every time I go to court to get my babies home, she brings up a bunch of lies and even though she has no proof, the judge believes her... and its all do to her not wanting to lose my son's money.

I have now been diagnosed with a syrinx. Its a tumor that is caused by blunt forced trauma that lies inside of my spinal fluid canal.. it is inoperable and is now starting to affect my speech and balance. I just want my babies home before this gets worse.

I think that if I can get my lawsuit going, it will force the courts to give me back my children faster. I also want to use some of the winnings to help other domectic abuse victims.

The only problem that I am having is .. finding an attorney that will take my case on and is willing to take his earnings at the end. I have called attorneys, however they want several grand down for a retainer fee... that I do not have due to not being allowed to work.

I am asking you to help me. Help me please find an attorney that can help me get my babies home before it is too late. My tumor is having a huge impact on my life. I have already missed 4 years of my babies lives and I am not sure how much more I can stand to lose.... Please help me find an attorney willing to take their earnings at the end..

Thank you ever so much... please visit my myspace profile where there are laws and amendment rights pasted on there.. that have been broken. Also there are pictures of my beautiful children...

Love Tammy ~ a heart broken mommy.